hi.
I haven't written a whole lot, have I?
hmm.
I've been ill with bad colds and minor flu douches.
but turning fifteen lessened the tremendous (not so much) pain??
working on about 5 videos at once, and my movie maker is gettin quite jumbly in my tumbly, if you ask me.
I've actually been working on a huge blog thats really negative so far but will (probably?) have a positive ending. and like I said, I'm going to try and put more music/politics in my blog because I'm feeling a little to journally with this whole blogging thing.
anyway, so i can get my silly little stuffed-up face to bed-
I acheived two cd's for my birthday.
one, "consolers of the lonely", by The Raconteurs.
:| Oh. EHM. GEE..!
effing great cd.
all the songs I've listened to so far,
are gold. All worthy for the public. (Kind of like american idiot, how all those songs were so great)
and the I got fresh fruit for rotting vegetables from dead kennedys but i pretty much downloaded all the songs illegally so its not a biggie :X.
AH
HH
I am so sleepy!
night.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Friday, September 19, 2008
erm. Hai.
Waiting for my video to fix itself.
I'm so tired; sick; annoyed; and unmotivated to the point of mental implosion.
I don't want school.
I don't want to sit on the computer.
I don't want to watch t.v., or talk to anyone.
I want to listen to music; eat; and sleep.
I don't want to get drug into a church that belives in slaying anyone who doesn't believe with all their heart, even if you try to bribe me with caffiene.
No; I will sit on my bed, and polish my cds.
I don't know how far that'll get me in the future, but who cares?
Hmm.
I guess I do, huh?
I'm so tired; sick; annoyed; and unmotivated to the point of mental implosion.
I don't want school.
I don't want to sit on the computer.
I don't want to watch t.v., or talk to anyone.
I want to listen to music; eat; and sleep.
I don't want to get drug into a church that belives in slaying anyone who doesn't believe with all their heart, even if you try to bribe me with caffiene.
No; I will sit on my bed, and polish my cds.
I don't know how far that'll get me in the future, but who cares?
Hmm.
I guess I do, huh?
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
These; The Things I Hate
these are a few pet peeves of mine.
a list of the 50 things I love will be arriving soon, because as I wrote it, as negative as I was, I would think "Well, I actually love that, not hate it...".
The beauty of brainstorming, huh?
:)
1) the human body can't run on artificial energy after so many hours of sleeplessness.
2)the ways of which we have been raised either enables us or makes it impossible to film ourselves.
3)The fact I am the age I am and still kept from doing things I love.
6)How you can try so much, work so hard, but still fall short and have someone point it out.
7) I hate how there can be one person, and no matter what they do, no matter how you know them, or if you know them at all, they'll always be picked on & shoved down.
8)There is always a cheater. or a liar. or a suck up.
9)All guys think the same way: her hair's too short. her eye's are too brown. [Why wasn't she born perfect?]
10) The human heart, no matter how hard it trys to fool itself, always wants just a friend.
11) people who think they're too cool for anything; or can't stand watching people have a good time.
12) Being embarassed because you act like yourself too much.
13)How people don't take showers often.
14)earphones say liifetime warranty (but mean only two weeks)
15)how someone wants to be so positive, but is so negative.
16)how some girls will do anything for a guys attention.
17) when all you need is a rainy day to make you think, all you get is sun.
18)going to the fridge and finding out there's no soda.
19)breaking guitar strings
20)the inability to draw
21)dirty looks from girls you've hated since they outcast you.
22)people who think they have the right to not only be "honest", but brutally malicious.
23)really sensitive people
24)whenever OhAndThis"JustIn" swears in front of his son
25)"fingerquote""Gangsters""fingerquote"
26)It's impossible to be fully conscious in Science.
27)losing ONE slipper. [such a tease]
28)sour cream.
29)the stubby end of the broccoli
30)How I always feel so sick, but they're no symptoms to anything.
31)thick&creamy mac and cheese.
32)my town
33)the color blue
34)old flashlights when the lights go out.
35)sports movies
36) people with little sense of humor.
37)how I still look for him, even when he's gone.
38)post its that don't stick
39)people that can't accept criticizm or lie to seem interesting
40)illegal downloading [old habits die hard]
41)the raw nose you get when you have a cold.
42)late library books.
43) cd's that look like they can be burned, but when you pop them into your computer, you get that uh oh warning that says : "please insert a BLANK disc", and then you feel stupid, like an inanimate object is smarter than you.
44)being so lazy
45)that nostolgia only lasts for a few seconds.
46)ugly plants in the yard of a pretty house.
47)black jellybeans
48)writing checks [frusturate me.]
49)not having any skill.
50)SCHOOL.
I blame all my major problems on it.
a list of the 50 things I love will be arriving soon, because as I wrote it, as negative as I was, I would think "Well, I actually love that, not hate it...".
The beauty of brainstorming, huh?
:)
1) the human body can't run on artificial energy after so many hours of sleeplessness.
2)the ways of which we have been raised either enables us or makes it impossible to film ourselves.
3)The fact I am the age I am and still kept from doing things I love.
6)How you can try so much, work so hard, but still fall short and have someone point it out.
7) I hate how there can be one person, and no matter what they do, no matter how you know them, or if you know them at all, they'll always be picked on & shoved down.
8)There is always a cheater. or a liar. or a suck up.
9)All guys think the same way: her hair's too short. her eye's are too brown. [Why wasn't she born perfect?]
10) The human heart, no matter how hard it trys to fool itself, always wants just a friend.
11) people who think they're too cool for anything; or can't stand watching people have a good time.
12) Being embarassed because you act like yourself too much.
13)How people don't take showers often.
14)earphones say liifetime warranty (but mean only two weeks)
15)how someone wants to be so positive, but is so negative.
16)how some girls will do anything for a guys attention.
17) when all you need is a rainy day to make you think, all you get is sun.
18)going to the fridge and finding out there's no soda.
19)breaking guitar strings
20)the inability to draw
21)dirty looks from girls you've hated since they outcast you.
22)people who think they have the right to not only be "honest", but brutally malicious.
23)really sensitive people
24)whenever OhAndThis"JustIn" swears in front of his son
25)"fingerquote""Gangsters""fingerquote"
26)It's impossible to be fully conscious in Science.
27)losing ONE slipper. [such a tease]
28)sour cream.
29)the stubby end of the broccoli
30)How I always feel so sick, but they're no symptoms to anything.
31)thick&creamy mac and cheese.
32)my town
33)the color blue
34)old flashlights when the lights go out.
35)sports movies
36) people with little sense of humor.
37)how I still look for him, even when he's gone.
38)post its that don't stick
39)people that can't accept criticizm or lie to seem interesting
40)illegal downloading [old habits die hard]
41)the raw nose you get when you have a cold.
42)late library books.
43) cd's that look like they can be burned, but when you pop them into your computer, you get that uh oh warning that says : "please insert a BLANK disc", and then you feel stupid, like an inanimate object is smarter than you.
44)being so lazy
45)that nostolgia only lasts for a few seconds.
46)ugly plants in the yard of a pretty house.
47)black jellybeans
48)writing checks [frusturate me.]
49)not having any skill.
50)SCHOOL.
I blame all my major problems on it.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
It's 1:13 A.M., I'm Listening to White Stripes, I'm waiting for a video to upload on the computer- face it. Conditions are perfect for a little blogging. FACEBOOK I got a facebook for the first time, and it's like everything myspace wish it had. Although I'm still figuring out what half of the web-space does and how to work it all I can tell... This will be an OBSESSION. SICK I've been feeling rather sick lately, like achy, and my head hurts alot, I don't know why. I can't tell if it's just a virus or something else; possibly? All this doctor-seeing is making my brain go places it doesn't need to go, and that's all I'll say about that. VIDEOS I found out today I was a better problem-solver than I originally thought I was! lol not to brag but jeezz. [I think I got abnormally lucky, to be truthful.] DREAMS I had a really cool/weird dream last night that made me psyched,,, queestion mark? I was playing drums. good. and it felt like.... like finding a 100$ bill. like that good. that's one thing I hope to experience the joy of.
Is This Stupid?
Riddle me this:
When someone commends me on my "Free Spirit", My mom agrees.
But,
she'd rather buy a pair of 50$ jeans that yuppies wear to show off,
and a t-shirt for 20,
than a sweatshirt for 30$, and a t-shirt for 10.
because of it's color.
I've gotten things I wanted all my life, I know that,
but why the sudden hypocritical mistake?
hmm. but it's happened so often,
Its hard to call it a mistake.
well, all in all, whether it's stupid, I still feel like saying one thing to her:
F*ck you,
Mom.
Go "Support my individuality" all you want,
but I'll be sure to let everyone know what the truth is in the end.
*winks*
When someone commends me on my "Free Spirit", My mom agrees.
But,
she'd rather buy a pair of 50$ jeans that yuppies wear to show off,
and a t-shirt for 20,
than a sweatshirt for 30$, and a t-shirt for 10.
because of it's color.
I've gotten things I wanted all my life, I know that,
but why the sudden hypocritical mistake?
hmm. but it's happened so often,
Its hard to call it a mistake.
well, all in all, whether it's stupid, I still feel like saying one thing to her:
F*ck you,
Mom.
Go "Support my individuality" all you want,
but I'll be sure to let everyone know what the truth is in the end.
*winks*
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Lots. Plus Music.
Hi I have alot to talk about including how I just got a special little gadget.
a little gadget by the name of: Camcorder.
However, mom has clearly informed me there will be NO youtube action anytime soon. but, I'd have to be the mature one, go ahead and say,
Ah, Nope.
What people don't realize is my voice can be as loud as I allow it to be.
Sure, I'm angsty.
psh. I'm what? a teenager. exactly.
everyone's like that.
Sure, my opinions are pretty stupid and narrow minded,
but my favorite thing to do is see the two sides and take back what I said, possibly changing my opinion confidently, using other's knowledge to build my own.
[So, not exactly narrow-minded.]
But it's like COme on, you know?
I want to be in the learning experience.
get to know it, head first.
I know the family only wants to protect me, and I know I may fail at this film thing horribly, but at least I can give it a try.
It almost is starting to feel like my life is already slipping by too fast-
I wish I would've done guitar earlier.
I'm ticked Aaron took away that year of possible discovery, opportunity, and, more so, innocence. [I pity him the most, if he always needs a girlfriend. He has no idea there's more to life than middle-school "relationships".]
I wish I could've accepted not fitting in,
I would be in a completely different place If I did.
There is so much to life, places to see, things to ponder, music to listen to, homework to do, babies to be seen born, deaths to experience, people to befriend.
The best you can do is get the most of YOU out there, you know?
so that when people look back, they know you had something inside. a spirit, or whatever. an opinion. I know I want to be remember as a real person. not just phisically, but really. someone who breathed music, spoke truths, and drank 5 sodas a day.
*sigh*
enough about that.
I think I may want to start a music section in my blogs, highlighting 5 bands.
This will be the experiment.
Fall Of Troy: I started listening to the fall of troy in the beginning of the summer and they are a really, really good band. These guys have an artful way of making hard-core sound very pop, fun and melodic.They really do have what it takes, in my opinion, to sell to people in my age group- they're different, and are making the tunes kids these days jive with. ;D out of 10: 7.0
White Stripes: Love it. Love it. Love it. His skin-ripping vocals [particularly on "consolers of the lonely", by the raconteurs, a side project of theirs] make every song worth listening over and over, and buying- twice. being only two of them, of course they aren't experts on every instrument,but they're pretty close. the way they write their songs brings chills down your spine, I swear.
on the other side, the actual melodies aren't that catchy.
over all and out of 10: 8.3
The Network: Completely insane. Unheard of, strange, and FREAKING genius. They are new-wave and the a close.... second in green day's side project.
out of 10: 9.5
Dead Kennedys: THE best punk. look I'm sorry, misfits didn't create the magic I was hoping they would, but these guys did. the wobbling vocals, the honestly, vulgarity, the expertise on every instrument- these guys were effing great.
out of 10: 9.9
Fall Out Boy:
Despite all this popularity crap, these guys have unbelivable talent and they need credit where it's due.
10: 9.2
a little gadget by the name of: Camcorder.
However, mom has clearly informed me there will be NO youtube action anytime soon. but, I'd have to be the mature one, go ahead and say,
Ah, Nope.
What people don't realize is my voice can be as loud as I allow it to be.
Sure, I'm angsty.
psh. I'm what? a teenager. exactly.
everyone's like that.
Sure, my opinions are pretty stupid and narrow minded,
but my favorite thing to do is see the two sides and take back what I said, possibly changing my opinion confidently, using other's knowledge to build my own.
[So, not exactly narrow-minded.]
But it's like COme on, you know?
I want to be in the learning experience.
get to know it, head first.
I know the family only wants to protect me, and I know I may fail at this film thing horribly, but at least I can give it a try.
It almost is starting to feel like my life is already slipping by too fast-
I wish I would've done guitar earlier.
I'm ticked Aaron took away that year of possible discovery, opportunity, and, more so, innocence. [I pity him the most, if he always needs a girlfriend. He has no idea there's more to life than middle-school "relationships".]
I wish I could've accepted not fitting in,
I would be in a completely different place If I did.
There is so much to life, places to see, things to ponder, music to listen to, homework to do, babies to be seen born, deaths to experience, people to befriend.
The best you can do is get the most of YOU out there, you know?
so that when people look back, they know you had something inside. a spirit, or whatever. an opinion. I know I want to be remember as a real person. not just phisically, but really. someone who breathed music, spoke truths, and drank 5 sodas a day.
*sigh*
enough about that.
I think I may want to start a music section in my blogs, highlighting 5 bands.
This will be the experiment.
Fall Of Troy: I started listening to the fall of troy in the beginning of the summer and they are a really, really good band. These guys have an artful way of making hard-core sound very pop, fun and melodic.They really do have what it takes, in my opinion, to sell to people in my age group- they're different, and are making the tunes kids these days jive with. ;D out of 10: 7.0
White Stripes: Love it. Love it. Love it. His skin-ripping vocals [particularly on "consolers of the lonely", by the raconteurs, a side project of theirs] make every song worth listening over and over, and buying- twice. being only two of them, of course they aren't experts on every instrument,but they're pretty close. the way they write their songs brings chills down your spine, I swear.
on the other side, the actual melodies aren't that catchy.
over all and out of 10: 8.3
The Network: Completely insane. Unheard of, strange, and FREAKING genius. They are new-wave and the a close.... second in green day's side project.
out of 10: 9.5
Dead Kennedys: THE best punk. look I'm sorry, misfits didn't create the magic I was hoping they would, but these guys did. the wobbling vocals, the honestly, vulgarity, the expertise on every instrument- these guys were effing great.
out of 10: 9.9
Fall Out Boy:
Despite all this popularity crap, these guys have unbelivable talent and they need credit where it's due.
10: 9.2
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Cue Inspiration in 5....4...321......?....??..!?!?
Okayy so I'm having one of those moments again where I am completely aware I must blog.
but I just don't have the heart to do more work than needed?
[Not that this is hard work... I like doing this otherwise I wouldn't.... AHH I don't know... just lazy, I guess.]
omg.
this chick.
this weemo.
has the weird urge,
nay,
the impudence,
to sit there with a safety pin in chorus, with a ring of people around her trying to cheer her up, trying to inflict pain upon herself.[cut herself.]
yea.
long story short,
she's a classic effing crybaby.
lets further investigate:
[I went to school with her my whole life, I have the right to JUDGE!]
1st-7th grade: obsessed with cute puppies and ponies.
8th grade: likes the word penis, and thinks it's HILARIOUS to make sexual references at all times possible.
9th grade?: well it's looking like she's pretty much, just a retard.
look I'm sorry.
I know I shouldn't be kickin people when they're down,
but its people like her that make me hate the human being in general.
the psychology,
our brains,
everything.
ugh i need to not talk about that right now.
i need something happy....
ooo!
5 things that make me happy!
1) the callusii (callususes? caliseese? well, what would you suggest?) you get when you play the guitar.
2)not using the tights on my feet when I'm in ballet class.
3)listening to your iPod with comfy, quality earphones, and know that nobody knows you are.
4)writing a song. [okay,i haven't written one yet, but when I do. It'll probably be the best thing since animal crackers in my soup.]
5)the Internet in it's entirety. along with nerds flurrys and cheesy gordita crunches from taco bell. *fantasizes about poser mexican eats*
yeawn.
good night.
at least i was a little positive,
huh?
but I just don't have the heart to do more work than needed?
[Not that this is hard work... I like doing this otherwise I wouldn't.... AHH I don't know... just lazy, I guess.]
omg.
this chick.
this weemo.
has the weird urge,
nay,
the impudence,
to sit there with a safety pin in chorus, with a ring of people around her trying to cheer her up, trying to inflict pain upon herself.[cut herself.]
yea.
long story short,
she's a classic effing crybaby.
lets further investigate:
[I went to school with her my whole life, I have the right to JUDGE!]
1st-7th grade: obsessed with cute puppies and ponies.
8th grade: likes the word penis, and thinks it's HILARIOUS to make sexual references at all times possible.
9th grade?: well it's looking like she's pretty much, just a retard.
look I'm sorry.
I know I shouldn't be kickin people when they're down,
but its people like her that make me hate the human being in general.
the psychology,
our brains,
everything.
ugh i need to not talk about that right now.
i need something happy....
ooo!
5 things that make me happy!
1) the callusii (callususes? caliseese? well, what would you suggest?) you get when you play the guitar.
2)not using the tights on my feet when I'm in ballet class.
3)listening to your iPod with comfy, quality earphones, and know that nobody knows you are.
4)writing a song. [okay,i haven't written one yet, but when I do. It'll probably be the best thing since animal crackers in my soup.]
5)the Internet in it's entirety. along with nerds flurrys and cheesy gordita crunches from taco bell. *fantasizes about poser mexican eats*
yeawn.
good night.
at least i was a little positive,
huh?
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
hmmkayy.... Okay. I get it now. I get it.
I'm watching Green Day on youtube.
*cough* Greatt Stuff.
[I know I'll regret it when I'm like 20. But I don't care..]
we started blogging today in english.
so that's pretty cool, I guess.
lol!
I really honestly don't have much to talk about...
hmmm.
I'm buying Nimrod, once and for all.
:|
bye.
*cough* Greatt Stuff.
[I know I'll regret it when I'm like 20. But I don't care..]
we started blogging today in english.
so that's pretty cool, I guess.
lol!
I really honestly don't have much to talk about...
hmmm.
I'm buying Nimrod, once and for all.
:|
bye.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Technical School and Then Social School on my Side Of the Spectrum.
Okay
1st off I'll admit I'm not much motivated to write right now.
But,
blogging has proven to be the chicken soup to my flu.
the band-aid to my little slivers in life.
and I think it's time to put some observations out there.
Part I
So we begin:
'Twas the first day of school today.
really excited for english (more than any other class :) NO JOKE!)
mostly because it sounds like writing, opinions, reading, more writing,vocabulary, and more writing.
and you think, "Sara, that sounds like work. hard work. everyone knows you aren't that great with that, or responsibility for that matter."
[Okay that's probably what my family is thinking,but in case others think the same way..]
Well I'll have you know,
I adore english.
Even more than that,
I adore creative writing.
And I don't expect the class to be a breeze, but I do expect to have a firking great time in the first class of my day.
and second hour. Mr. Burmesch.
pretty cool.
not into physical science stuff, I don't think- but we'll see.
Guitard and Keyboard.
semi-excited.
I haven't gone yet, I'll go tomorrow.
I hope we do guitar first; or I won't be psyched anymore.
Civical.
Ermm.
Lately with the elections I've been wanting to know more stuff about the political platforms. the healthcare, foriegn policy experience, the financial stuff and all the oil drilling buzz has me feeling out of the loop. So I'm eager to learn about that stuff, as wierd as that seemss....
I just wish I had a more... pleasant....teacher??
I shouldn't say that, but I've just heard some nasty things about her and I guess I'm scared.
:\
Blue Gold/ Gym
blue gold = pretty cool.
gym= Not cool. At all. GAG me.
I have sawall, again.
I'm not a fit person. I dance. i don't run.
I don't kick around balls.
I don't play duck duck goose.
I don't run. (Or did I already say that?)
I don't move to anything thats not music.
I DANCE.
that's it.
and not square or electric slide.
*rolls eyes*
lunch with robert.
concert choir
is not going to be fun.
I'm alone.
:
algebra
hasn't given me a really great impression.
mrs. kempe sounds cool and all,
but when the first paper you give me is a test?
Sorry, Darling, no matter how sweet you go about it,
WE AIN'T ON THE RIGHT FOOT.
I couldn't pay attention at all.
I was crashing hard cause of the caffiene I sucked down.
ughh.
not a good start. at all.
andd eighth,,,,
Teens Today.
I'm not sure about it.
the way she talks still bothers me.
Part II
ermm kay.
so I noticed a couple of things today, that kind of puts my inner turmoil to rest.
everybody was trying to be different.
(the fad-twin sluts weren't dressed in gear similar to mine so that was settling.)
Just looking around homeroom, you could almost smell the bottles of dye used.
me included.
everybody wore their most charasmatic t-shirts.
everybody got their hair cut.
everybody tried so hard to be different,
and the most beautiful thing about it is,
even though everybody thought everybody else was rippin' on their style,
me included,
everybody was different.
socially,
today was NOT boring.
Like I said, it was really refreshing to know I wasn't the only one trying to find my style.
you know,
the look that fits me.
*sighhs.*
kayy.
watching the republican national convention.
[although I'd prefer to
BARACK YOU LIKE A HURRICANEE!]
1st off I'll admit I'm not much motivated to write right now.
But,
blogging has proven to be the chicken soup to my flu.
the band-aid to my little slivers in life.
and I think it's time to put some observations out there.
Part I
So we begin:
'Twas the first day of school today.
really excited for english (more than any other class :) NO JOKE!)
mostly because it sounds like writing, opinions, reading, more writing,vocabulary, and more writing.
and you think, "Sara, that sounds like work. hard work. everyone knows you aren't that great with that, or responsibility for that matter."
[Okay that's probably what my family is thinking,but in case others think the same way..]
Well I'll have you know,
I adore english.
Even more than that,
I adore creative writing.
And I don't expect the class to be a breeze, but I do expect to have a firking great time in the first class of my day.
and second hour. Mr. Burmesch.
pretty cool.
not into physical science stuff, I don't think- but we'll see.
Guitard and Keyboard.
semi-excited.
I haven't gone yet, I'll go tomorrow.
I hope we do guitar first; or I won't be psyched anymore.
Civical.
Ermm.
Lately with the elections I've been wanting to know more stuff about the political platforms. the healthcare, foriegn policy experience, the financial stuff and all the oil drilling buzz has me feeling out of the loop. So I'm eager to learn about that stuff, as wierd as that seemss....
I just wish I had a more... pleasant....teacher??
I shouldn't say that, but I've just heard some nasty things about her and I guess I'm scared.
:\
Blue Gold/ Gym
blue gold = pretty cool.
gym= Not cool. At all. GAG me.
I have sawall, again.
I'm not a fit person. I dance. i don't run.
I don't kick around balls.
I don't play duck duck goose.
I don't run. (Or did I already say that?)
I don't move to anything thats not music.
I DANCE.
that's it.
and not square or electric slide.
*rolls eyes*
lunch with robert.
concert choir
is not going to be fun.
I'm alone.
:
algebra
hasn't given me a really great impression.
mrs. kempe sounds cool and all,
but when the first paper you give me is a test?
Sorry, Darling, no matter how sweet you go about it,
WE AIN'T ON THE RIGHT FOOT.
I couldn't pay attention at all.
I was crashing hard cause of the caffiene I sucked down.
ughh.
not a good start. at all.
andd eighth,,,,
Teens Today.
I'm not sure about it.
the way she talks still bothers me.
Part II
ermm kay.
so I noticed a couple of things today, that kind of puts my inner turmoil to rest.
everybody was trying to be different.
(the fad-twin sluts weren't dressed in gear similar to mine so that was settling.)
Just looking around homeroom, you could almost smell the bottles of dye used.
me included.
everybody wore their most charasmatic t-shirts.
everybody got their hair cut.
everybody tried so hard to be different,
and the most beautiful thing about it is,
even though everybody thought everybody else was rippin' on their style,
me included,
everybody was different.
socially,
today was NOT boring.
Like I said, it was really refreshing to know I wasn't the only one trying to find my style.
you know,
the look that fits me.
*sighhs.*
kayy.
watching the republican national convention.
[although I'd prefer to
BARACK YOU LIKE A HURRICANEE!]
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